tuesday march 27 2001 | 10:45 p.m.
the good things first:
studying in newly-revamped gund | pool and pingpong with daniel, nick and elizabeth | weekly sessions of racquetball with nick | at least the snow melted | people's birthdays at week's end! you know who you are | i do love kenyon, so much -- i just forget sometimes | moments of clarity this weekend | talking to becky tonight | hanging out on north campus | matt's and katie's respective art exhibits | rothko | siamese dream | before night falls | javier bardem | ed is taking me to see the plan in wpb the day after i graduate | ed | my images are not broken | my essay for film class kicked butt today, late as it was | being surprised pleasantly | jim greer is back | venting | senior week soon | daniel's band pegasus is playing at the wkco concert two weekends from now | i am so lucky to have friends like these | cha cha cha sean na na | gund pan-geos rocks | trix | fruity sugary cereal in general | while we're on the subject of food, cottage cheese with honey | vernon schubel | holy shit alan shapiro is coming to teach at kenyon next year | indieboys, what can i say | drinking with natalie | drinking with joel and professor kluge in april: it's a date | my parents will finally see me graduate | crocuses | small kindnesses | the big yellow dog that followed me around campus this afternoon | smoke breaks with friends and talking about old saturday morning cartoons and silly things | senior pub night tomorrow | david grubbs | we finally got past the archers of loaf reference | david foster wallace | fritz's boy is coming to visit! | recording with ed | the way you can see winter turning into spring in people's faces
and then, as an afterthought, the bad:
"if you don't find that dildo, you're dead!" (a leader fratboy to a pledge fratboy, overheard just now. i guess hell week is nigh. god help us all.) | nobody to talk to. | complete and utter loneliness sometimes | the oscars | around the corner from april, and it's snowing | only a few weeks left, after all | poetry class | art of christian europe class -- at eight in the morning | skipping class and being guilt-ridden and anxious | worrying too much abut everything | american politics | wait, no: politics | estrangement from people, plural | being taken for granted | compromising dreams for financial and job security, potentially | boys in general, when they're not just friends | having to start thinking about packing up my room | i cannot believe i missed the party of friday | i won't be here to take classes with alan shapiro next year | my body does some scary shit to me sometimes | procrastination | how much i'm going to miss my friends when this is over . . .
note to self: and now scroll back to the list of good things and read them again, because in the end -- hell, always -- these are the things i will remember, the things that really count.
