saturday may 04 2002    |    7:50 p.m.

sporadic update. list of bad things followed by list of good (attempt to catch up on the last month or so). still having computer problems. we shall see.

what sucks

ø my job.

ø my inability to save money.

ø still not having a car. the possibility of being unable to finance one.

ø not having my own place. not having my own place. not having my own place. not having my own place.

ø hormones.

ø sinuses, bronchitis, etc. i've been sick. really sick, for the past week.

ø i have to go back to work tomorrow. fook.

ø smoking too much, of this and of that.

ø my job. again. and its many abuses.

ø "excuse me, do you work here? i'm looking for this book..."

ø retail feet.

ø apartment buildings.

ø television.

ø the way cigarettes taste and smell when i'm sick. blech.

ø knowing i should quit and not wanting to.

ø spending way too much money.

ø my job.

ø this heat. and it's only may.

ø holy shit. i graduated a year ago.

what doesn't suck

ø my boyfriend.

ø his band's show at liquid last tuesday. they rocked.

ø seeing rufus wainwright last night. orgasmic.

ø seeing rufus with my friend papo. we were like schoolgirls.

ø being right. in. front. of rufus.

ø meeting a certain promoter and his wife at rufus. and seeing him and tati and ed again.

ø hearing from ben after a year of not.

ø his mix cd #2. bravo.

ø virgin megastore impulse shopping: kind of blue, head hunters, the new dismemberment plan, the new wilco.

ø getting scott into the 'plan.

ø shelley's thesis.

ø HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FRITZ! don't think i'd forgotten.

ø i've been sick = haven't been to work in four days.

ø raucous debaucherous 4/20 barbecue/tjtt show at ozzy and beth's. we had the cops called on us: sign of a good party.

ø rediscovering a sense of purpose.

ø plans to run off to the keys or the gulf coast for a weekend with scott soon.

ø the kitchen is reopening on biscayne this friday!

ø next weekend, denise and johnny intensive: the kitchen on friday night, then staying over at denise's, then being manna's date for their high school reunion. you know, more debauchery, good company.

ø getting a new computer soon.

ø i actually went to a strip club a couple of weeks ago for the first (and, i hope, last) time in my life. i'm not sure if this should be classified under "things that suck" instead.

ø the s&m shoes.

ø used car shopping with ozzy and josé.

ø the osbournes.

ø sunny day real estate.

ø the nick drake bio by patrick humphries.

ø the sunflowers i'm growing, that i've managed not to kill yet.

ø fate or something like it.

ø holy shit. i graduated a year ago.

ø i was told by my friend vic that at the dismemberment plan show in west palm, jason was wearing a "kenyon is not near uganda" t-shirt. rock.