2001-10-23    |    11:07 a.m.

please do go read my ode to seth before anything else.

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oh my god.

ok. i just had a not-so-figurative vat of espresso. so if i make any typos, it's because my fingers can't quite focus on the keys right now.

i just checked my e-mail and found out that i'm a finalist for something i really, really, really want. i'm not elaborating until i find out (very soon) whether i made the final cut or not, because i think i've jinxed myself enough and there's only so much wood available to knock on around here. but ok. let's just say i'm gonna be smoking lots of cigarettes today, and probably not drinking too much more coffee.

another very exciting thing is that holly wrote me e-mail too. it has been a stellar morning for my inbox. (i just almost dumped my cup of coffee on my lap. whoa.) i miss holly. some nights at school we would huddle in my room or hers and chainsmoke and have long awesome cathartic talks. and even more nights we would hole up in mike's room, all three of us taking bong hits and feeling like we were tucked away from kenyon madness for a while. mike's and holly's various dorm rooms through the years were always a kind of safe haven, always removed from school in a way i'm not sure i can explain.

and there was the last day of school junior year (mike and holly's senior year) when they helped me box up and empty out my room. i couldn't figure out what to do with my refrigerator, which was mildewy and i didn't have time to clean it and it was huge and cumbersome and i didn't want to put it in storage and i hadn't had time to sell it... so mike told me to unencumber myself, and he carried it out back of leonard hall, and i think he kicked it a little bit, and i felt unencumbered, and well, it was just a good way to say goodbye to the two of them.

anyway. microphones rundown coming up soonish. or you can read about it here or maybe here. time to go run around or something.